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Denise [userpic]
Aaargh! Help.
by Denise (scarlettdesire)
at September 3rd, 2006 (05:08 am)
current mood: confused and distressed
current song: some french music

Ma Chere Christine,

I would like this to be one of those normal entries where I ask about the things going on in your life and everything. Consider that and this sentence to be me asking you all those questions that I really do want to know the answer to, but have something far too urgent to tell you.

Katie just left my room. The night was entirely pleasant and we seem to be reconnecting. However, she finally admitted that she doesn't support my relationship with Brian. She thinks that he is not the one for me. Furthermore, that if Brian and I were to get married in the nearby future, she couldn't and wouldn't be a bridesmaid because she just doesn't feel like he's the right one. Worst of all, she thinks Thom is my Rhett. What's really scary is that I think I might believe her and I have no clue what to do because I really have no interest in dating Thom. She also reminded me of what I said to her the day after mine and Brian's first date: "Maybe he's the one to help me get over Greg. To show me that not all men are liars and assholes. Maybe he's the one to prepare me for who I'm supposed to be with."

What the hell?! I'm not mad at her. She was really scared and reluctant to tell me all this. Plus, I don't know if she's entirely wrong. Dear God, I really don't want Thom as my Rhett. But at the same time, I'm afraid I'm going to start trying to convince myself that Brian is the right one, when he might not be. But I so badly want him to because although we are different, I love him so much.

wistfulprincess [userpic]
This is freaking Hilarious!!!!
by wistfulprincess (wistfulprincess)
at December 3rd, 2005 (03:12 pm)

current mood: amused
current song: Go to hell, Go to hell...

LiveJournal Username
got any superpowers?
what makes you risk the night?
traumatized at an early age?
let's be honest, do you play for one team or both?
damsels in distress are:
Your Superhero NameCaptain Bureaucracy
Your PowerA Pineapple, those bitches HURT
Your Sidekickmadamedechagny
Their NameFinkleburt the Untalented and Unemployed Clown
Their PowerLove baby, it will melt your heart and that nuclear device
Your Nemisismadamedechagny
That person you always have to rescuemadamedechagny
Chances you'll get the guy/girl/robot/duck
This Fun Quiz created by erzabet at BlogQuiz.Net
Virgo Horoscope at DailyHoroscopes.Biz

So you are my side-kick true, my arch-nemesis (many that explains the jealousy between us) so partly true, and I'm always have to rescue you (leave that to you to interpret. Wicked funny and I thought you'd appreciate it. Oh and you're superpower is surprisingly accurate.

If you're name is not Jamie and you are seeing this then let me know. Thanks!

wistfulprincess [userpic]
by wistfulprincess (wistfulprincess)
at October 21st, 2005 (12:33 am)

Ma Chere Christine,

So, to update you on my issues with life and love and stuff. Brian and I had a talk and we're going to try and work things out. I mean, seriously I can't let him go for something like that without giving him another chance I just love him too much to do that. I can't help it. So we'll see what happens.

Last night was interesting. It was Matt Englehart's 21st birthday and we took him out where everyone save like me, Alli, Brian, and a few others got drunk of their asses. I will admit that I bummed some sips off other people but nothing enough to get my drunk. But yeah, everyone then started making out everywhere. People were just going crazy. Hobbit came over and kissed my boob before she grabbed them and while jiggling them said, "they're just so cute and perky." Alli, Katie, and I had a "kiss" but that was more like, "we don't know how to do this so we're really just going to kiss eachother on the cheek right near the lips." But like Katie was making out everywhere and i think Alli made out with this girl Carrie who's new in hilltop. So yeah, crazy, ridiculous. I, however, did not make out with anyone else. I think I'd actually need to be drunk for that.

That said, I kind of want to build up my tolerance for alcohol. I mean, I don't want to go getting smashed all the time but I don't want to be able to drink about couple without getting wicked drunk, ya know. I mean, it's fun to go out to a restaurant and be able to order whatever that drink was that I stole from B. I'll have to ask again for like the 9th time. I really don't like anything that tastes too much like alcohol, but mixed drinks are nice.

Anyway, I'm feeling moderately alright. I have more to talk to you about and I miss you so much and I wish I could come home this weekend, but alas, no such luck. But I'm off to meet Brian, I love you.

wistfulprincess [userpic]
by wistfulprincess (wistfulprincess)
at October 19th, 2005 (09:47 am)

current mood: pessimistic
current song: my Astronomy teacher

To put my im craze to you in livejournal form... It's not different from anything I wrote on AIM. My mood icon makes me smile.

So last night Brian and I had a fight and this morning Brian and I had a fight. The one that we had this morning is a reoccuring one. I can't help needing to get up the way I do and he's let me rely on him so I've gotton used to it. Let me summarize, in order for me to wake up without it being physically painful i need to wake up at least twice before actually needing to get up. I can't help it. Trust me, it's more of a pain for me than it is for him. Out o the last 4 times I've slept over, he has been unable to wake me up, not because he's not awake but because he can't seem to understand that my mumbling/groaning before I roll over and sleep does not indicate that I have woken up. I told him I need to be conscious, he needed to ask me questions or make me repeat what he is saying to me. But somehow he can't seem to do that. It's soo frustrating because everytime it happens I feel sick and terrible all day and I get wicked angry with him. And so far it's happened 3 out of 4 times so 3 out of 4 mornings I've been feeling terrible and angry with him. I hate being angry with him but he doesn't seem to get it. It just makes me feel like he is unreliable.

I've been really good about it. Aside from being angry in the morning, I get over it rather quickly and maybe that's why he feels like it's okay.But this happened after last night, when I told him that my cousin is in the hospital. My cousin Nicole had a severe, severe asthma attack and went into respiratory failure. That right there is more than Brian knows because when I told him, he was far too concerned about his shoes to pay attention to me. He doesn't listen to me. I feel like we don't share that mental connection. He has better conversations with you than me. Like I said last night to him, if we stopped dating today we would have nothing to say to each other. He has more inside jokes with you out of the last few times he's talked to you than he's ever had with me for almost a year in a half. In fact, I think he's listened to you more than he has to me. He doesn't seem to have time to listen to me, he's too busy trying to please me or having a superficial conversation with me to actually listen to me. To be honest, I'm reluctant to go to him as a result. Why go to him, if he's not to going to listen to me or support me at all.

I almost rather be his friend, he's way too serious as my boyfriend. It happened right away. We talked the way you and Brian talked the first date. After I kissed him and there was a potential relationship, that fun Brian who I connected with so well seemed to disappear. I don't know what to do. Overall he's a great guy and I love him more than I thought I could but, I don't think it's any coincidence that Jim is somehow back in my mind. Jim listened to me, I mean, he really listened. He was just as good as you and that's saying something. We connected mentally unlike I've ever felt before. Brian and I couldn't be more opposite from that. Hell, Greg did better before the lies started getting terrible. Granted, Jim was completely unreliable and he hurt me terribly but Brian's running the risk to hurt me in a similiar way to Greg because he doesn't listen and even when he seems to he doesn't hear me.

The fact that we've had the same argument 3 out of 4 nights spent together means that he is not listening to me. It's going to take us a very long time to actually have a real conversation, I understand that. That won't change overnight but I don't want to constantly be bitching at him. I don't want to have that same connection based on argument like I did with Greg. I can't to do this constantly. I mean, to be completely honest I'm surprised I'm so in love with him without that mental connection. I suppose he makes me laugh as well as other things and I feel something strong connection that's not mental. i don't know what it is though. Maybe we're hitting another lag in our relationship. But I don't know, the fact that we fought, made up, fell asleep, woke up, and fought again that really bothers me. So I don't know what to do. Oddly enough, I don't want to talk to anyone about it. I don't want to sit down with Katie or anyone. I'm tired, I miss you, and I want to go home. The only thing that I feel happy about is judging by your away message you seem to be very happy.

Christine [userpic]
by Christine (christineadaae)
at September 21st, 2005 (12:32 am)

Hi sweetie,

I remember you saying that you didn't feel like you had a Goddess archetype, but I've been looking at all of them, and Atalanta definitely reminds me of you. Also, there's the Atlanta / Atalanta connection.

Just something to think about!


Christine [userpic]
by Christine (christineadaae)
at September 15th, 2005 (12:26 pm)

current mood: bouncy

Dear heart,

We ought to watch My Best Friend's Wedding together.

I'm just saying. It would make sense, wouldn't it?


Christine [userpic]
by Christine (christineadaae)
at September 6th, 2005 (12:48 am)


Check out our userinfo. (I think it's funny, anyway.)


wistfulprincess [userpic]
Almost a real post
by wistfulprincess (wistfulprincess)
at September 2nd, 2005 (01:15 am)

current mood: sick
current song: I need to listen to more music

Dearest Christine,

I did see your post and I promise I'll post tomorrow. I seriously have the worst head cold in the entire world. Right now, my eyes can't wear contacts, I can't breathe through my nose, my throat is wicked sore, I've lost my voice, and finally today I have become unable to hear very well as my ears have been wicked blocked up. Needless, to say that because of this and the Red Sox Game last night and people moving in today, I've been far too tired to write anything that makes any coherent sense.

But I'm wicked psyched about finally getting our perfume! I probably won't be home this weekend, but if you want to come up that would be cool. Or after I have my first classes I should know about next weekend and we can do the perfumes and scrapbooking and stuff! I'm sooo pumped!

And tomorrow, I'll post a real update.

Love you!

Love Always,


Christine [userpic]
by Christine (christineadaae)
at September 1st, 2005 (05:50 pm)




Christine [userpic]
by Christine (christineadaae)
at August 31st, 2005 (11:28 pm)

Hi sweetie,

I wrote back to you, if you didn't notice, and I changed our layout around just now. I hope you like it!


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