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Aaargh! Help.
by Denise (scarlettdesire)
at September 3rd, 2006 (05:08 am)
current mood: confused and distressed
current song: some french music

Ma Chere Christine,

I would like this to be one of those normal entries where I ask about the things going on in your life and everything. Consider that and this sentence to be me asking you all those questions that I really do want to know the answer to, but have something far too urgent to tell you.

Katie just left my room. The night was entirely pleasant and we seem to be reconnecting. However, she finally admitted that she doesn't support my relationship with Brian. She thinks that he is not the one for me. Furthermore, that if Brian and I were to get married in the nearby future, she couldn't and wouldn't be a bridesmaid because she just doesn't feel like he's the right one. Worst of all, she thinks Thom is my Rhett. What's really scary is that I think I might believe her and I have no clue what to do because I really have no interest in dating Thom. She also reminded me of what I said to her the day after mine and Brian's first date: "Maybe he's the one to help me get over Greg. To show me that not all men are liars and assholes. Maybe he's the one to prepare me for who I'm supposed to be with."

What the hell?! I'm not mad at her. She was really scared and reluctant to tell me all this. Plus, I don't know if she's entirely wrong. Dear God, I really don't want Thom as my Rhett. But at the same time, I'm afraid I'm going to start trying to convince myself that Brian is the right one, when he might not be. But I so badly want him to because although we are different, I love him so much.